I said I was single, not anymore.
I thought I would enjoy courtship from different guys while i was single. But no, it was irritating and it got on to my nerves. And i realise, being flirtatious with guys is just an escape from the past tiring relationship.
I love my new boy. You may think it was too fast, or that i was cheap, cruel. Whatever, it was the first time experiencing so much respect and love for one. He never wanted me to change, for he love me like that. He never wanted me to stop doing certain things, for he wants me to be happy. We have so much in common, we are so similar in so many ways. And now, i can truly tell the the world, I've found my other half. I may not have swore to god that i would marry and must marry him, not now perhaps. But i definitely see him walking with me in the future.
I know i said i wanted to marry WeiLong, it was true. There were moments where i wanted to, but every time he hurt me verbally, i would be so lost, I'll ask myself, ' Do i really want to marry this man?' Violence cant solve problems, i know it cant. I was brought up that way and it didn't do me any good. I know you mean it when you say you're truly sorry, but when you said you'll change for me. It never happened.
I need someone for me to fall back on when I'm down and hurt. Not scold 'Kanina, pua chee bye' and go beat up that person who pulled me down. You cant give me what i want, what you gave hurts and fears me.
When i cry, what i want is simple. A shoulder to cry on, perhaps a kiss on the the forehead and tell me everything is okay. Have you, EVER did that? Well it doesn't matter, cuz Clement can do it and now, you're not in the picture anymore. At least not mine.
I thought I would enjoy courtship from different guys while i was single. But no, it was irritating and it got on to my nerves. And i realise, being flirtatious with guys is just an escape from the past tiring relationship.
I love my new boy. You may think it was too fast, or that i was cheap, cruel. Whatever, it was the first time experiencing so much respect and love for one. He never wanted me to change, for he love me like that. He never wanted me to stop doing certain things, for he wants me to be happy. We have so much in common, we are so similar in so many ways. And now, i can truly tell the the world, I've found my other half. I may not have swore to god that i would marry and must marry him, not now perhaps. But i definitely see him walking with me in the future.
I know i said i wanted to marry WeiLong, it was true. There were moments where i wanted to, but every time he hurt me verbally, i would be so lost, I'll ask myself, ' Do i really want to marry this man?' Violence cant solve problems, i know it cant. I was brought up that way and it didn't do me any good. I know you mean it when you say you're truly sorry, but when you said you'll change for me. It never happened.
I need someone for me to fall back on when I'm down and hurt. Not scold 'Kanina, pua chee bye' and go beat up that person who pulled me down. You cant give me what i want, what you gave hurts and fears me.
When i cry, what i want is simple. A shoulder to cry on, perhaps a kiss on the the forehead and tell me everything is okay. Have you, EVER did that? Well it doesn't matter, cuz Clement can do it and now, you're not in the picture anymore. At least not mine.
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