Let it go..... Finally heaved that sigh of relief.
But, why do i feel like a part of me is lost, gone forever?
3 years together and 2 years of fear, lastly 1 year of fatigue filled life.
People who knows my story know what kind i have, Drama drama is all i can say, i didn't matter how 'exciting' my life seems. Sometimes i just want to be a little bit more normal. Had been an abnormal girl for far too long.
I am brought up in a family that uses violence and abuses to educate me, I looked strong since the day i understood stuff, i act like I'm strong and i know i make people believe that i am strong. But deep down through all these years. I seem to lose the true me. I lose the one in me that needs care, concern and perhaps the ability and courage to breakdown. Maybe i feel that this way my family would feel more assured? Well i don't know, i just thought it's the right way to behave? It seems like its not the right way after all.
Since i already live in such a painful childhood, i don't think i need a boyfriend that traumatise me just the same. Am i not right?
I know you told me you'll change. After breaking that damn promise for so long, how do you think i can trust you?
The first time i laughed so hard and loud for so long and the reason was no longer you.
But, why do i feel like a part of me is lost, gone forever?
3 years together and 2 years of fear, lastly 1 year of fatigue filled life.
People who knows my story know what kind i have, Drama drama is all i can say, i didn't matter how 'exciting' my life seems. Sometimes i just want to be a little bit more normal. Had been an abnormal girl for far too long.
I am brought up in a family that uses violence and abuses to educate me, I looked strong since the day i understood stuff, i act like I'm strong and i know i make people believe that i am strong. But deep down through all these years. I seem to lose the true me. I lose the one in me that needs care, concern and perhaps the ability and courage to breakdown. Maybe i feel that this way my family would feel more assured? Well i don't know, i just thought it's the right way to behave? It seems like its not the right way after all.
Since i already live in such a painful childhood, i don't think i need a boyfriend that traumatise me just the same. Am i not right?
I know you told me you'll change. After breaking that damn promise for so long, how do you think i can trust you?
The first time i laughed so hard and loud for so long and the reason was no longer you.
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