How could you care that much?

I think you barely know me, you don't know who i was and what i am.

But surprisingly, you were the one who stood by me when i needed it. I thought it might be someone else but your name never occurred in my head... You supported me, more than family and when i told you to come, you were already prepared to appear right in front of me. How could someone sacrifice so much for me, when he didn't knew 10% of my life? I'm the devil in disguise whereas he is innocent giving me his whole heart. Am i too much?




To Mr Lim, i never even thought you could be such a fucking jerk. You mind fucked my brother so you could get his support? Seems like you manage to hurt me in another way. Good job.

Relieved and lost

Let it go..... Finally heaved that sigh of relief.
But, why do i feel like a part of me is lost, gone forever?
3 years together and 2 years of fear, lastly 1 year of fatigue filled life.

People who knows my story know what kind i have, Drama drama is all i can say, i didn't matter how 'exciting' my life seems. Sometimes i just want to be a little bit more normal. Had been an abnormal girl for far too long.

I am brought up in a family that uses violence and abuses to educate me, I looked strong since the day i understood stuff, i act like I'm strong and i know i make people believe that i am strong. But deep down through all these years. I seem to lose the true me. I lose the one in me that needs care, concern and perhaps the ability and courage to breakdown. Maybe i feel that this way my family would feel more assured? Well i don't know, i just thought it's the right way to behave? It seems like its not the right way after all.

Since i already live in such a painful childhood, i don't think i need a boyfriend that traumatise me just the same. Am i not right?

I know you told me you'll change. After breaking that damn promise for so long, how do you think i can trust you?



The first time i laughed so hard and loud for so long and the reason was no longer you.

Im eating whole pizza.

people who understands me know how unhappy i am.




i miss ....... I dont know what to do le



Gonna binge till i die

Drama Drama

Joined and online competition. Lol, seem like i caused quite alot of commotion on the web. I think people just dont understand the meaning of DPDP ( don't know what that means? Join RP ) I may look heidious to some or a beauty to some. Its never just good or just bad. Cant people get this simple law in life?

Anyway, want to see the BIG hoo ha. Go to Belumni.com.

No matter what happens. Laoniang love myself =)